I hate the way you talk to me,
and the way you cut your hair.
I hate the way you drive my car,
I hate it when you stare.
I hate your big dumb combat boots
and the way you read my mind.
I hate you so much it makes me sick,
it even makes me rhyme. I hate the way you’re always right,
I hate it when you lie.
I hate it when you make me laugh,
even worse when you make me cry.
I hate it when you’re not around,
and the fact that you didn’t call.
But mostly I hate the way I don’t hate you,
not even close…
not even a little bit…
not even at all.
- Have you ever:
- 1. Skipped class? Yes.
- 2. Done drugs? Technically.
- 3. Self harmed? Yes.
- 4. Drank? Yes.
- 5. Shoplifted? Yes.
- 6. Gotten a tattoo? Yes.
- 7. Broken up with someone? Yes.
- What’s your favorite:
- 8. Show? Currently Grey’s Anatomy. Overall, Gilmore Girls.
- 9. Movie? I don’t have one anymore.
- 10. Song? Currently, “Let Her Go” by Passenger.
- 11. Tumblr? Yours.
- 12. Singer/Band? Adelle / Rascal Flatts.
- 13. Memory? Laying on my dad’s belly.
- 14. Book? The Giver.
- This or that:
- 15. Invisibility or Ability to fly? Invisibilty.
- 16. Cookies or Cake? Cookies.
- 17. Twitter or Facebook? Facebook.
- 18. Movies or Books? I’m partial to either.
- 19. Coke or Sprite? Sprite.
- 20. Blind or Deaf? Deaf.
- 21. Tea or Coffee? Tea.
- What’s your:
- 22. Age? 21.
- 23. Sign? Gemini.
- 24. Height? 5’6”
- 25. Sexual orientation? Gay.
- 26. Shoe size? 9 1/2
- 27. Religion? N/A
- 28. Longest relationship? Without breaking up, One year, four months.
- Opinion on:
- 29. Gay rights? For it.
- 30. Second chances? I don’t know.
- 31. Long distance relationships? Hate them. Don’t work.
- 32. Abortion? Against it for myself, but I don’t care what other people do.
- 33. The death penalty? I don’t know.
- 34. Marijuana ? *shrugs* Your life. I don’t like it.
- 35. Love? It’s too difficult.
- Do you:
- 36. Believe in ghost? Yes.
- 37. Shower facing the shower head or turned away from it? Both.
- 38. Sleep with the door opened or closed? Depends.
- 39. Love someone? Yes.
- 40. Still watch cartoons? Yes.
- 41. Have a boyfriend/girlfriend? No.
- 42. Like yourself? Yes.
How to get into college in 1983: get good grades
How to get into college in 2013: get good grades, speak six languages, be a rocket scientist, and end world hunger
How to pay for college 1983: Work part time and summers. Maybe take out minimal loans.
How to pay for college 2013: Which of your organs is the most valuable?
What to do with your degree in 1983: work in your field
What to do with your degree in 2013: cry
I texted you. When I didn’t get a reply, I called you to apologize for the text and to tell you I’m done with him as soon as I find somewhere to go and done with hurting you and that I’d leave you alone.
I heard the voice tell me my number was blocked.
I took screenshots of my text to save in case there is ever a day that you won’t hate me and you’ll want to see it. I don’t know why I keep holding onto your memory. I thought you’d disappear from my head like everyone else…
I have never regretted anything…. You know that.
I regret pushing you away. You were right about everything you said.
I hope one day I get to tell you that. I’ve been driving myself crazy over you and I seriously want you to know that I know that I was stupid for what I did. And for not forgiving you for that stupid email.
There is just so much I want to say…
But I guess for now I have to deal with our last goodbye…